Day 15: 12/31/18

Ok so it’s been a little over a week since I last wrote. But I have just had my first vacation in over 3 years (alone) and I soaked it all up! I feel refreshed and ready to hit the ground running again! My daughter and husband have been gone for the last week and will be home tomorrow night. I miss them very much and definitely know that 11 days is too long for me to be away from my little angel. But I did really need to recuperate and get some rest and just have some alone time. Very grateful for this time.

So, I am 210.2! Very happy with that. Had a few days where I had a little too many calories but all in all, I did really good this week. In the last 2 weeks since I started, I went from 215.8 to 210.2 (technically I was almost 220 just a few days before…but I didn’t put that down yet haha). I am very pleased with myself for sticking to it and making it through each day.

Some days have truly been a challenge, but so long as I can stay occupied and not think about food, I do better. I also haven’t gone shopping for food in over a week and that has helped. I try really hard to only buy good healthy food when shopping so that I have no treats or distractions at home. Cause if it’s around I tend to eat it! Haha! That’s another reason I stayed home the last week. Holiday’s tend to involve SO MUCH food, and me staying home meant I avoided all that food, so yay me!! πŸ˜‰

I hope to be 209.8 or less tomorrow for New Year’s! That will make me so very happy! Then I hope to be under 200 by the first of February! That will be so exciting and I can’t wait to get out of the 200’s! They suck! haha! 

Thank you all so much for being here with me and I wish you a very Happy New Year! Woohoo! 2019 and 134 lbs here I come! =^D


Day 7: 12/23/18

Well, somehow I ended up waking up at 210.6 this morning! That’s crazy! And so awesome! I feel wonderful! I feel like it’s finally starting to work!

Today I slept in really late: until nearly 10:30am! Granted I stayed up until almost 3:30am! Haha πŸ˜‚ It’s so nice to do whatever you want when you are home all alone! I just relaxed and enjoyed myself!

I did not go to the gym today but I ate really good and healthy! Played with my dogs, sat for a couple hours in my massage chair, watched some lifetime Christmas movies, enjoyed my down time and alone time! It was wonderfully refreshing!

Day 6: 12/22/18

Well I was pretty perfect yesterday and today with gym and eating but I woke up heavier this morning at 215.2! Yesterday I was 214.8. I don’t get why I went up last two days! It doesn’t make sense and I’m kind of bummed. But I’m staying strong. I won’t cheat! I am doing this!

Michael took Kira to his parents place in south FL this morning and will be there until the morning of the 26th and then he drives up to Illinois until the 1st. My first real vacation in over 3 years! No kid, no spouse, just me and the three dogs! πŸ˜‚ today was just a down day to relax. Tomorrow I will be getting into a good routine.

I plan on hitting the gym in the morning, then shower, then work. I have a lot of catching up to do for my new job that starts in 2 weeks so this is what I will be doing. I will focus on eating good, working out, working/studying and relaxing! I plan on sleeping in every single morning!!! Until at least 8-9am! πŸ˜†

My goal is to be under 209 by the morning of the 1st of January. More than anything I had wanted to be under 200 by that date but that is not happened so I’ll take what I can get!! Any weight lost is a triumph and I will celebrate!

Day 4: 12/20/18

I went to bed last night around 8:30pm!! I feel amazing now! I got about 10 hours all together and I love it and feel so refreshed! If I didn’t have so much on my plate these days I would totally get more sleep because man that felt good! Haha πŸ˜‚

And I woke up this morning and weighed in at 214! That’s 1.2 down so me so happy for sure! Love stepping on the scale to see any loss! Makes my heart smile! πŸ˜‰

As for my gym time: Took Kira to school this morning but when I got there two fire trucks were turning into the compound. Turns out there was a gas leak. They were letting the kids still stay but 30 min later I got a text saying to come pick her up! So no gym today 😦 but maybe I needed a down day. 😜

Ate really good today so hoping for another small loss tomorrow at least. And Michael gets tomorrow off from work so I get to hit the gym in the morning! Yay! Actually excited about it! Starting to really and truly enjoy the gym time and think of it as my down time and me time! 😁

Day 3: 12/19/18

Yay! I made it thru day 3! haha! It’s a big deal and I am feeling awesome! The pain from working out is almost gone and I feel great! I was able to do a full hour today! 30 min treadmill, 30 min circuit training and 10 min elliptical! I went in today telling myself that I LOVE the gym and that this place is my release and my freedom! I feel so proud so far of my accomplishments. I mean, it is kind of silly to celebrate just 3 days of being on track, but I have to start somewhere and so here I am! πŸ˜‰

Also, I weighed in at 215.2 this morning! That is pretty amazing! Very happy with that! Means tomorrow I know I’ll be way less! The more progress I see, the more will-power I obtain!

My only obstacle is the fact that I am supposed to go with my husband to IL to see his family for New Years…from the 26th of December through the 1st of January. They cook so much food, such yummy, amazing, delicious and terribly fattening food. So, if I must go, then I will say no to ALL sugar, all breads, all pastas…all cream sauces??? I will stay strong and just be good. The other thing is working out. IL in December will have a lot of snow…so no working out outside. And I don’t have a membership to a gym in that state…so that means I will have to do something from YouTube on my phone. I have to get over the part of me that would be embarrassed and just suck it up! Because I do not want to fall out of habit just for the holidays. I think I may just do stuff like squats, lunges, pushups and sit-ups each morning and night. It’s not cardio but it is some strength training. Any ideas or thoughts for me?!?

Day 2: 12/18/18

Today was easier than yesterday, thank goodness! I did wake up at 216 lbs today but I know it’ll be less tomorrow and I’m not going to let it get me down. Some days I will be higher than on other days, it’s just how the body works. I just have to focus on the end goal, the final result.

I was abe to hit the gym again today. Got in maybe only 5 min of abs, but I did 20 min on treadmill and 15 min on the high knee elliptical (really worked the buns and thighs, ouch!). Burned about 300 or so calories so that made me happy!

As for food, well I didn’t eat much as I was swamped! Got up around 8am and had to leave at 8:45 to take Kira to school. Then gym, home, shower, breakfast, work, pick Kira up from school, take Kira to playground for an hour, then Walmart for healthy shopping and home by 5:30pm! I had only eaten 330 calories of oatmeal, 100 calories of fiber bar, and 70 calories of coffee before picking Kira up. Had small bites of a couple things here and maybe totaling 100 calories so that puts me around 600. I will probably eat some more tonight but I’m surprisingly not hungry right now.

I just wanted to say thank you to my friends and family for the support. It really means so much to me to have you all here with me! Makes me feel strong and brave and like I can take on the world! I am doing this!!

Day 1: 12/17/18

Welcome to the first day of forever….oh joy…haha πŸ˜‰ Well, today I am already down 1.4 lbs from yesterday and weighed in at 215.8! That made me smile! Then I did my measurements…made me smile way less 😦 But everyone has to start somewhere, right? Here are my stats:

Body Measurements

So as you can see, I am FAT! It is so bad! But, I have a goal, I have a place to start and I am doing this! I have to! I don’t have a choice anymore. I cannot just sit back and think that someday it will just be better and someday I will just be skinny. The only way to get skinny is to do the work, put in the time and energy and get it done! And by George, I am going to do that and do it NOW! No more talking about weight loss, just action!

So, today I took my daughter to school and then hit the gym! I did 22 minutes on the treadmill, even did about 5 of those minutes jogging (granted it was 3 separate jogs as I could barely breathe, but something). Slow start, but it’s a start. Then I did circuit training for another 20+ minutes. Is it a bad sign when I can barely walk from being sore and it has only been a few hours?!?! 0_O uh-oh! I’m in for it tomorrow, huh?

I worked out what I want to do for my exercises: M/W/F will be 20-30 min treadmill and 20-30 min circuit training. Tu/Th will be 20-40 min abs and 20-30 min treadmill. Saturday and Sunday will be my slow relaxing gym days where I can just watch a movie for about an hour on my phone while on the elliptical. Figured I would give myself a little break hehe πŸ˜‰

For food: I am to keep my calories around 1200 and do low-carbs and no sugar. I will make like eggs, bacon on low carb/calorie tortilla or overnight oats for breakfast. Protein and a little carbs to get me going. Then have like a tuna lettuce wrap or meat and veggies or a soup or a low calorie frozen meal for lunch and dinner. Snacks will be apples, bananas, yogurt, cottage cheese, cucumbers, okra, etc.Β 

Let’s talk BMI for a minute. I am 216 lbs and 5’5″ so my BMI is 35.9. This is the obese category. In order to drop down to just the overweight category I need to weigh in at 179, which puts me at a BMI of 29.8. Much better but still a ways to go. When I hit 149 then I will no longer be considered overweight and will be in my normal range! Yay! I need to hold on to anything that can help me make it even one more day, as each day will get easier so long as I do not mess up. Looks like you may be hearing from me more often than I originally thought. πŸ˜‰ Excited?!?Β